My sweet Baby Opia,
Momma's heart has had such peace the last few weeks... I am so grateful. God knew my heart was really hurting for your birth momma and your whole birth family; and it kind of put me in a 'funk' for a while. But now, He has given me new joys while I think of you and wait for you!
This weekend was full of many joys... Thanksgiving... Daddy's favorite! And lots of family time, and Christmas shopping... and Tenleigh's birthday party! Little Tenleigh... the spunkiest, sassiest little soon-to-be 4 year old, with the BIGGEST heart! She makes my heart just swell!
The 4 of us went to the YMCA yesterday. During my time of wait and preparation for you I have challenged myself to get into shape! I try really hard not to miss any work out opportunities. As we were getting ready I asked your sister what she likes to do at Kid Stuff.
"Do you like to play with the baby dolls?"
"Not anymore, Mom."
"Why not anymore?"
"They're not there anymore. They moved them."
"They moved them? Where'd they move them to?"
"They went to Minneassandlips."
Read that again. Slowly. :)
Minneassandlips.
Mini Ass and Lips. I died of laughter inside. Tenleigh's sweet, innocent attempt at "Minneapolis".
And before I knew it, I replied with: "I want to go there too!" :D (I mean let's get real... who DOESN'T want to go to Minneassandlips when you have a Get-In-Shape goal like mine!?)
And so, my sweet Opia, yesterday I chased you.
As I ran on that treadmill and wanted so desperately to stop and call it "good enough"... I kept on running! I thought of the "Special Mommies" that are taking care of you. I prayed and I prayed that they're able to respond to your cries. I prayed that you still do cry to get what you want and need. I prayed for your little body, that it will stay strong and healthy. I prayed for your tender heart, that it be protected. I prayed for your little crib mates, play mates, and volunteers. I prayed for your orphanage and I prayed for all the people that will be reviewing our dossier and translating it.
Yesterday I chased you, sweet one.
And I know there will be many more times for me to chase you... between now, in my heart and mind, and the first moment we get to chase you in our own backyard.
But for now... I wait. I pray. And apparently I even run (!)... until the day we can finally say, "GOTCHA!!"
Darn it...you sucked me into your blog...I'm supposed to be making dinner and my heart is singing, my eyes are crying...and the kids...the kids want me to finish making dinner.
ReplyDeleteKatie there are no words. You are amazing and your heart for this sweet babe is larger than life. So blessed. So blessed.
Thank you a million for being my friend and allowing the Lord to hit us over the head (innumerable) times to encourage our friendship. I love you to the moon.